we started our kindergarten homeschool year yesterday. it went really well, thanks be to Jesus, because if the first day had been hard, i would have cried and wondered what i got myself into. ; ) it was interesting setting up things for school, it's hard to live in 650 sq. ft. as it is, let alone schooling in it, too! i have our school stuff tucked away in little pockets throughout the house - it's not ideal to have it scattered, but this way it's hidden and not overwhelming our home with abc, 123. we have half of their bedroom set up like a classroom and then we sit at our tiny two seater dinner table for arts and crafts and writing. we also plan on going outside as much as possible!
i love seeing my babes grow and learn and discovering where their strengths lie. we really love Five in a Row (you can read more about our homeschool decision and curriculum here), so it gets me more excited about our days and planning out our year. it is all overwhelming and wonderful at once. i'm thanking God for "His spirit who gives life. Knowing it is the Holy Spirit's work (not ours) to regenerate hearts frees us to pray that he would work powerfully through both our weaknesses and our strengths" (-Thompson and Fitzpatrick, Answering Your Kids' Toughest Questions). this Truth brings me such comfort and relief - especially after the first day of homeschooling! thankful the Lord gave Jessica Thompson and Elyse Fitzpatrick such wisdom to share with parents (they were so kind to send me a copy of their new book - what a blessing!).
homeschool, honestly, has been a good distraction from the reality of our life right now. kelly and i talk about how we basically hit the "restart button" on everything, and let me just say, that going to Seminary with a family, is a great way to start over. and by great way, i don't mean that it feels really great. ; ) it's challenging and humbling, going from a somewhat normal life, to working part-time jobs, and trying desperately to see what exactly the Lord is doing right now because it doesn't quite make sense. when everything has gone the opposite of plans, it's easy to want to know what the new plans are. but we don't see that far ahead, yet - however, we know the One who does and that has to be enough for us. i read this randomly, as i am not a normal reader of her blog, but it has stuck with me and was meant for me and says what i feel -
We may sorrow but we still sow. And though we are broken, we still bend and begin; we do our work though we weep. We tell our hurts we must still do the task at hand if we hope to harvest; though we may not feel like it, the fields need seeds.He is with us, and that is enough. this reality brings sustenance and joy for everyday life and ministry and homeschooling and wifehood and friendships and all of it.
So we hang out the clothes as we try to hang on, and we stir the pot as all the pain spills, and we still sow though in tears, and let go of every seed, burying hopes and hurts in faith, and out of loss, new life will unfurl, our tears watering rows. God is with us. And it’s His tender with-ness that binds up the wounds. - Ann Voskamp