change the world with a diaper change.

life feels small sometimes.  i mean, mine does anyway.  i don't have the ability to serve much at church or outside our home.  having one car feels debilitating.  my honey is completely involved at church (obviously, since it is his job) and it's easy to feel unimportant or not useful.  i change diapers and he leads people in worship.  he prays prayers that sound like liturgy and i tell my kids not to pick their noses.

i think a lot of us moms feel the same way.  we think staying home, raising babies, is a stage, and one day, maybe we'll make it to the big stage with curtains and all, ready to change the world.  but for now, this is our lot and so we try to enjoy it and soak up all the dripping goodness of child-raising.

and it is a gift, a good gift, one of the best gifts, to be home, shaping hearts and molding minds that hopefully reflect something Bigger than ourselves.

i can get lost in the daily's, waiting for the next stage to arrive, waiting for the change i think i should bring to the world. suddenly the potty training and the story telling feels like nothing much and we need to find significance somehow, somewhere, to feel important, to feel like our life counts.

but i'm thinking there's a thing or two (or two thousand) to learn from the Christmas story.

Jesus was a baby.  Jesus was a baby.  i cannot fully grasp the reality of this.  God Himself, came down, took on the form of a small, helpless, crying, child that needed a mother to care for him.  the Creator of all things was made low to save the lowly.  this story, the greatest one ever, is my Christmas story, it is my banner, my every day story.  this small baby is the biggest and greatest and richest true story ever told.

although i am not in Africa bringing drinking water to thirsty souls, i'm doing the small things God has asked of me.  my small things might just end up across oceans one day, doing work in the name of Jesus saying something like "my mom is my biggest inspiration."  just maybe.... the daily's are changing the world... one diaper change at a time.  all we have to do is show-up, live the lives we've been asked to live, and this is when we'll change the world.  no stage or curtains or applause needed.