1.13.2012

grace-laced (this is where you tell me i can do it)


i think we're born with a deep feeling of entitlement and dark sense of deserving. maybe it's because we started out in Eden, we live for Heaven, so in the meantime, earth is a settling all on it's own.

we receive good gifts, like Grace and family, church and friends, clothes and shelter, food that fills, hearts that explode because we have.

we kind of expect those things.  we work hard, try to attain a certain status that in the back of our minds is tied to the money in our paychecks or our 401k.    

it's easy to think we've worked hard for such and such and so deserve it.

but then something happens when someone gives you a gift in the shape of a four wheeled vehicle parked outside in our driveway.

humility and undeserving come to mind.

there is no way i can think i deserve it.  i didn't work hard for it.  it was a gift.  free.  a free, beautiful, grace-laced gift.  like Salvation.

tomorrow i will run my very first half-marathon.  which is way different from my high-school cross country races, although it seems the nerves are the same.  i had been training for this since last May. when mid-November rolled around, it was looking like a frivolous thing to spend our money on since things are pretty tight financially.  so my training wained and i just let go of that goal.  i was really okay with it.  but then, two days ago, a friend of mine wanted me to run and paid for my registration.  humbled again.

i am excited and scared to death.  13.1 miles is a lot for two little legs.  i don't deserve to run in this race.  i didn't pay my dues, they were handed to me.  but grace.  so much grace.

even if we did not get a car, even if i was not running this race, even if God had not provided for us last month in the numerous miraculous ways He did, He would still be faithful and i would still have more grace than i deserve.  i want to remember that.  these earthly gifts are not the end of the road.  they are just pointing to something far better.  my hope lies in eternity with Jesus not in the things - even if they're gifts and good things. i don't want to "be like a child who wants to go on making mud pies in the slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by an offer of a holiday at sea," as C.S. Lewis would say. 

back to the race.  this is where you tell me not to fret and to go for it and that i can do it.  : )  i'll be back monday for a report, if i survive.


linking with rach.  because running is a fave of mine. and obviously Jesus is my ultimate favorite.


friday favorite things | finding joy

43 comments

  1. you most certainly can do it! go, go, go! run the good race and don't forget to have fun!

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  2. I used to have a song on my iPod called "Giving Up" by Ingrid Michaelson. I was training for a half marathon a couple of years ago and one day I said to my self "What AMILISTENINGTO???"

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  3. This is where we say Yay! Yes, you can. Of course then I have to throw in a Bible verse cuz I really am whack like that: Philippians 4:13 For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength. (NLT)
    Pictures, please. May your two little legs carry you well.

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  4. Ahhh so excited for you!! I too ran my first half last year- and I am also a highschool XC girl ;) you'll do great!! you'll be surprised at how strong your body is;) one thing that helped me is to SMILE during the race...as much as you can:) isn't God amazing...I really loved your post today- spoke to my heart!

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  5. How exciting! Can't wait to hear how it goes!

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  6. You can DO it! I'll be thinking (and praying) for you tomorrow as your two little legs run that long (yikes!)

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  7. You CAN do it and you WILL do it, my friend. I am so PROUD of you. And, I love your post and the deep truth found in it. And I love you, too. But, I love Jesus more. Just like you. ;)

    I will pray for you. Run, Carissa, Run.

    Rach

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  8. Oh wow! So excited for you and can't wait to hear all about it! You go girl!
    And the car thing.....We have been humbled by such a gift ourselves. It kind of blows you away! And the Lord has allowed us to be the giver of such a gift too...more than once! We ain't rich by no means, so for us to give a way cars....well, it's totally a God thing. And I am always amazed at how God uses His people and the resources He's given us to complete His work. He is such an amazing Provider!! Good stuff!

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  9. 1/2 marathon! gahhh! i'm so stinkin' excited for you! i have it on my bucket list to do a 1/2 marathon this year. my goal is to run the 1/2 in san francisco in july. i'm a really slow runner and mentally sometimes i get defeated. anyhoo, you are half my age so girl you go out there and get em! you can do it! i can't wait to hear all about it ; ).

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  10. What a nice surprise for you! Those undeserved gifts are the best. We want to run a 1/2 this year as well...but like you said, it's expensive so we're going to have to set the money aside. I've always wanted to run a 1/2 marathon but never a whole marathon...can't wait to see how you do!!!!

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  11. oh, my goodness, what beautiful babies you have:) new follower here...visit if you get a chance:
    http://childhoodmyths.net/blog

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  12. You go, girl! None of us have paid our dues, Jesus did. What a great metaphor!

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  13. Best of luck to you! I'm just training for a 5k, and even that seems like a lot!

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  14. You will do beautifully!! And if my Hubs is right, then you'll feel so accomplished when you're finished. I've never run that far, but I hope to by the end of this year! =)

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  15. run forest run!

    you're gonna do great! can't wait to hear all about it

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  16. Best of luck!! You will do great! It is one of the best feeling when you cross that finish line. I couldn't stop smiling for hours because I knew I had done something I never imagined I would do.

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  17. I LOVE your thoughts about starting out in Eden and living for Heaven...therefor, the rest of this can be so overwhelming and we feel like we deserve so much. What a great way to put it!

    And good luck!!! I know you will do GREAT! I am just on week 3 of Couch to 5k and when I have to run 3 minutes straight I worry I might die. So WAY TO GO. It's not easy!!!

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  18. Girl you've been training for this for a long time- you can do it! And that burst of endorphins at the end will be awesome :)

    I love what you said about entitlement and humility... it's something I'm studying/experiencing right now.

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  19. You'll do great! And you'll be surprised how much adrenaline helps those miles pass by! Good luck! And remember not to start out too quickly!

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  20. Lovely, Carissa dear. I know you can do it - your strong! :D

    love,
    ~Bree

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  21. good luck sweetie!! you can do it!! :D

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  22. Of course you'll survive and do wonderfully! After all doesn't the Bible say we can do all things through Him who strengthens us! Your a daughter of God, co-heir with Jesus, His strength will be with you each step of the way as you run forward.

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  23. You can do it lady! And I'm so excited for you for that feeling you will get at the end (not that I would know from personal experience since I would be laying down dead in the road around uhm, mile 2, but I hear that feeling happens ;))
    And thanks for the reminder to look to Him. Always.

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  24. You can TOTALLY do it! It will be so much fun! The adrenaline really does take you farther than you would normally go. And stop and walk for water breaks and stretch if you need to. You'll love it! Don't fret! Treat your body well but challenge it. You'll feel GREAT! (and live to blog about it!)

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  25. You can do iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitt!!

    I can completely relate to your feeling unworthy with all the grace and gifts from friends and God. Gosh, can I relate! It never gets easier no matter how many times it happens but as G-man said..and my friend's now husband said to her, its a blessing to the giver to give to you. By not receiving it, or fighting excepting it is denying them that blessing.

    Food for thought. :)
    knock that race out of the park, my friend.
    Emily at Amazing Grapes

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  26. .....and by excepting...I CLEARLY mean accepting.
    The End

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  27. Good luck! I bet you will be great. I also did cross country in high school but have yet to tackle a half marathon. With persistent injuries and busy schedules I'm thankful for the gift to still be able to run--even if i can't go that far. Enjoy it, sister! Woo!

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  28. Oh carissa...I just love you. He's so good right? Providing provision in every circumstance...even little goals and dreams we have. You will rock that race. You will cross that finish line and feel so proud of yourself. I can't wait to hear all about it. Wish I could be at the finish line cheering you on.

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  29. Of course you can do it!! Even if you have to pray all the way to the finish line (yes, I do this often when I run a race ;) A half-marathon is on my "before 30" list. Hopefully later this year!

    I love this post btw- Realizing how much we don't deserve makes us that much more grateful for the things we have. Humility is important in life- I'm trying to teach the boys that lesson :)

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  30. Yes, Yes, Yes you can DO this! I'm inspired. What a tremendous journey and goal. Continue making mud pies girl. Go with blessings.

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  31. sweetie, you so can. you so will do it! #champion

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  32. Oh my goodness. You can totally do this!! I've done it, and I'm not a real runner. Yes, girlfriend, you've totally got this! Will be thinking of you in the morning and cheering for you from Asheville!!

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  33. God is so good. He loves us with a passion...and cares about our needs. Receive with open arms...His love for you, even if it comes in the form of overwhelming gifts.

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  34. I wish I had read this yesterday! I'm sure you did amazing in your race!!! I doubt I could ever run that far (#pathetic) God is good!!!

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  35. Can't wait to hear about it! #inspiring

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  36. I can just imagine you crossing that finish line with a great big ol' grin. I wanna hear all about it Monday!! Go girl go!

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  37. You truly CAN do anything because Christ will give you the strength.
    Thank you for being an inspiration.....God will use you.

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  38. Well, I saw on FB that you did indeed survive the race. I thought of you yesterday morning and was glad to see that you did just fine. I knew you would!

    Isn't it amazing how the Lord provides for more than just our needs. My entire childhood was spent seeing this lived out in our family's lives. There were so many times that, just out of the blue, folks would minister to us and meet a need that would not have otherwise been met. He is beyond good!

    Just know that you are a blessing to me each and every week through the words of your blog. I see your heart and it blesses me tremendously!

    Keep on keeping on! Hugs!

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  39. Wow, I wish I had half your humility.

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