12.14.2012

what she understood


i think about me all too often. i'm so good at it, too. i think about what i "deserve." what praise my family owes me. what pampering i should be getting. what life of ease i should get to be living. and it's all sickening.

maybe it's because i live in america, or maybe it's because i'm human, but i have a sense of entitlement that seeps into my thinking and living.  

if i was Mary, praise to the Lord would not be my response to a pregnancy before my wedding. i'd be depressed about my body getting big before the big day. how am i supposed to fit in my size 2 dress, Lord?? how could you? lame.

Mary understood this world was not about her nor her comfort. there was a far greater purpose, a higher calling, a bigger plan. the sweetest part though, is that the Lord chose to use her.  He didn't have to, but He wanted to. i wonder how the Lord might choose to use our hearts if they were willing like Mary's.

this Christmas season, may our hearts be set on something bigger and better and greater than ourselves. and may that pour into every part of our being and each day of our living.

14 comments

  1. I love how He chose to use the misfits...the flawed...to fulfill His plan in the Bible. Every single person in our eyes wouldn't have been the right fit...too young, too old, too sinful...not married. He always knows what to do. Gives me hope that He can use me too.

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  2. I'm AMENing this post! That passage one of the 'pondering passages' for me every single Christmas season.

    Blessings,

    s

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  3. Isn't this the truth? We always think about Why me? What about me? When God just wants us to focus on him! I needed this!

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  4. we are all too focused on ourselves. it's not good. great reminder. xo

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  5. Beautiful Mary, yes ma'am.

    My sense of entitlement rises up all the time too and I have to fight it. I do think living where I do has something to do with it. You see so much of what others "have" and you think you should have it to. It's an ongoing fight to get rid of those lies and surround my brain with Truth, but one I am willing to undertake always. Posts like this help the fight.

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  6. So true! I thought about this the other day as I listened to one of my favorite Christmas songs, "Breath of Heaven". One of the lines goes "But I offer all I am. For the mercy of Your hand." I love how this portrays Mary's willingness to listen to the Lord, and not focus on herself. Beautiful. <3

    xoxo//bree

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  7. Simply stated, and beautiful. Convicting, too.

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  8. I've thought about that too. I would be so concerned about the shame of the pregnancy I would forget about thinking eternally. Love the idea of seeing what God could do if our hearts were pure and focused on him.

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  9. Bigger, better than ourselves, what truth! I know I'm so guilty of being wrapped up in myself at times and it makes me so ashamed. Such a lovely post Carissa and you always have such "food for thought."

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  10. love this, carissa.
    you speak Truth.
    xo

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  11. Such a great reminder. I love this.

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  12. I love your honest heart here. I, too, struggle with entitlement issues. Most of my sin is tied up in my thought life about how my rights have been violated or all the ways and reasons I deserve better. Bleh! Thank you for your beautiful words of encouragement and hope in our God who just wants willing hearts. Blessings to you,
    Megan

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  13. I can't imagine how precious Mary's heart was... Oh to be sweet and soft, and willing for whatever He brings my way.

    Love you precious heart sweet friend.

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